Do you ever have days when you just want to withdraw quietly from society? You know, close your Facebook account and regain anonymity?
I woke up at 05.00 and went outside. Just me, the sea-fog rolling in, the birds and OH’s garden making the effort.
And then BeAnne turned up.
That’s all I need really. Her and me. Some times I find the world is just too much and I want it to go away and leave me alone. Jo calls them “ten feet away days” and she is right.
I need a drawbridge.
So, I went back to bed – the road to recovery is long but I always have canine company, so never lonely.
And, at the moment, I want to be left alone to get on with it. It is my own fault. I keep looking at other people’s lives and feel absolutely no affinity with anyone. Outside is another world and I don’t feel like I belong to it or ever will, to be perfectly honest.