There are actually not enough Tunnocks teacakes (the dark chocolate ones) in the world for how I feel today.
This morning I phoned the Pain Clinic to see what time to turn up on Monday for my much-needed spinal epidural injections only to be told that my appointment has been cancelled.
The re-scheduled me for March 2nd, the next clinic.
I cried. Honestly, I know its not anyone’s fault but this is a huge mountain for me.
Just when I thought I could possibly see the end, it has been swiftly taken away from me. I now have to endure two more weeks of chronic back pain along with shifting sciatica (now front upper and inner thigh) and its not easy to live with. The pain is unceasing and eroding.
Usually by now I would be making a large flock of sheep to sell when the cruise ships arrive in early spring but now I have no stock as I can’t sit for long periods (the sciatica won’t let me) and think I will have to close my little field in Lerwick. So that’s an essential source of funding gone.
I’m feeling very sorry for myself today. Life is not good, not good enough and I am tired and don’t have control of my life. Someone else is making decisions about me and, in my opionion, they’re not doing a very good job of it.
And there’s more snow forecast.
So now I am even more fed up.
(but the sun did make an appearance today and there was lovely blue sky too. And Monster got “The Bed”!)
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That is such a shame. I hope that you can cope. xx
I am going to concentrate on the Diaries if that is what my next few months/years has to be. I can try and finish them off.
Relentless pain really takes a toll and of course the disappointment of canceled appointment doesn’t help. At 84 know all about it. I wish I had a magic wand to make it disappear so please do take it easy. you do too much.
Lying on my bed forever now.
Well shucky darn, that’s not good news. Sorry to hear you have to endure the pain longer. Have yourself a good cry & then hug all the animals you can find. You will get through this
So sorry to hear this, Frances. As someone who suffers from chronic low-back pain, I can certainly relate. Do hang in there, I’m trust there’s light at the end of this tunnel!!
I am so sorry, that phone call must have been devastating.
i am so sorry. not much more i can say. that sky is just an amazing shade of blue. perhaps some small token to be grateful for.
Sending gentle hugs and best wishes. ❤️
Oh my gosh. I would be devastated. It has happened to me, but I don’t understand how a clinic that deals in helping people manage pain cannot realize the impact of their decisions on those at the end of their ropes. Were they just going to let you show up & say, ‘Sorry!’ In situations like this, I call this a Period of Justified Silent Whimpers.’ I can only think that they really cannot grasp what grinding, unrelenting pain is like. So very sorry. ;-{
Exactly that. Thank you for putting it so well.
You have all my sympathy, Frances. Constant pain is so wearing and it’s definitely not compatible with your responsibilities and lifestyle. Would there be any chance of an earlier appointment if you could get to a clinic on the mainland? I’m sure you must have thought of possible alternatives – maybe stronger painkillers for the weeks until March?
I don’t honestly think I have enough strength to travel south.
I am trying so hard not to take painkillers as they really muck me up inside and out.
Daisy is here and a huge help. Floss arrives on the 20th and they swap over. I am so lucky to have my daughters.
How come they didn’t advise you of the change. Might be time for a call to the local radio station
They did try but apparently my phone wasn’t responding